Mother’s DayMay 10, 2009
One month ago today I lost my baby. It’s mother’s day. I am honoring the day by honoring the baby that for a brief moment let me dream that I would be a mother. I wrote this poem a few days after he died and I share this poem here as a tribute my baby speck.
We meant to welcome you, a doctor catching your fall,
your head resting on my breast.
But- No one caught you, when you fell. No one held you close.
You left this world without a name, without a hug, without a kiss goodbye.
You will always be the companion I had
on long commutes
while i folded laundry
beating next to mine
I miss the nausea, and naps; the acne that began to sprout
I don’t want it now that you’re gone.
You were so little
Yet your absence is a scar
The size of Jupiter
I pray you never hurt
I pray you never knew pain
I pray you never felt alone-
you were not alone
when you left
you took a piece of me with you
with you it will always remain
You were loved.
You were my first.
I will never forget you.